Random (drunk) thoughts at 3 am

I am drunk. Yes, you heard that right, I am buzzed like a mother. And somehow, I caught myself looking through thoughtcatalog.com. I came across this article entitled "25 Things Love Does" (brace yourselves, this is going to turn into another love post).

Photo taken from tumblr

As usual, I scanned through the rest and looked for number thirteen. For those who don't know, thirteen is my favorite number. In my mind, it's neither lucky nor unlucky. And the lack of favorites it has somehow makes me feel like I'm unique by liking such a taboo number.

So I read number thirteen and this is what it says: 13. Is willing to let go if need be. For some weird reason, the thirteens of any list always get the best of me.

I don't know if it's the drunk self in me, or I was just really affected by the line, but it really got me thinking, "Am I always going to be the one that lets go?" Tonight, I found myself in a situation wherein someone very close to me (guy) had just broken up with someone (girl 1) and was kind of having a thing with someone else (girl 2). Recently, his past someone (girl 1) wanted to get back together so he wasn't sure about how he felt (mostly about girl 2). I seriously felt for girl 2 because I have been in that situation numerous times. And trust me when I say, it's not the best place to be.

I told my college block mates last night that lately I've been feeling like I would never find my stranger. Not to be melodramatic or anything, but I'm turning 24 this year. I've never had a serious relationship, let alone someone whom I can call my person. I guess sometimes, it's just really not in your stars.

I hope no one reads this. But who am I kidding? I want someone to read this. I want someone to tell me they're feeling the exact same way.

Gah. Good night. Or good morning. Whatever.

Note: I had to edit this post the next day because it had quite a few grammatical errors. :)

My thoughts keep me awake at night.

Are you single?

Probably the worst thing any twenty-something could hear, even from the nicest of persons --your grandmother, the next door neighbor, that childhood friend you grew apart from.

Who knew that three innocent words, when placed in a particular order, could haunt even the strongest of people? In this case, me, in particular. I wrote earlier today that I came in for a job interview. What I forgot to mention was that I was actually asked that specific question: "Are you single?"

My very first thought was probably, If I get the job or not, will it matter if I'm single? which somehow escalated to Will it even matter if I live out the rest of my life single? I mean, I've lived out the first quarter of my life "technically" single. What's another few decades? *Cue literally any Adele song*

So, to the reason why I'm still single: I hope you're single as well. Because when I finally meet you, 2 weeks, or 1 year, or even 10 years down the road, I will let you know that on this day, you have kept me from sleep. You have kept me waiting and allowed my thoughts to get the better of me. And at the very least, if you're also single at this very moment, I could have the pleasure of believing that you're awake as well. Maybe even thinking about meeting me.

So please please please be single. Right now. With me.

Quarter-life Crisis

You read that right. At the young age of 23, I believe that I am experiencing my quarter-life crisis. I've only been working for roughly 5 months (going on 6!) but I have this need to move. Move up, move forward, or move away, I'm not quite sure, but I'm definitely looking for change.

I updated my resume last week and applied to various companies on a whim. To my surprise, I had my first interview this morning. And while it's still too early to tell how it went (I'm leaning more on the bad side, mostly because of my lack of appropriate answers), I just want to tell you all the questions that I HATE being asked at interviews. In fact, a big reason why I think I accepted my offer at my current company is because I was never asked any of these questions.

1. What are your strengths and your weaknesses?
First of all, I think the same rules apply to your job interview as to your first date. Obviously, you're still in that stage wherein you're trying to sell the BEST parts of you. Now, why would you want to reveal your bad points straight up? And that's why I think any employer who asks this question is asking for bullshit.

2. You've only been with your current employer for x number of months. What can you say to convince us to believe you that you won't jump ship and leave our company after x number of months as well?
Again, bullshit. Obviously, I didn't take my current job with the thought "Oh, I'm leaving in 6 months." People, it's not a feeling that happens overnight! I don't even know how I'll feel tomorrow, what more in 6 months?? It's a combination of external things that affect the way you feel about your current job. Simply put, you want to be in a company where there is personal growth. The moment you feel like you've stopped growing, then definitely, it's time to find something new. It could be in 6 months, 2 years, or if the job is challenging enough, maybe even until you retire. It's different for every person.

3. Why are you leaving your current job? (Follow up: But we have OT and work on weekends, too)
Again, same rules as being on a first date. You don't just ask your date, "Why'd you break up with your last boyfriend?" and "So, if I forget your birthday, will you break up with me too?" It's like, you can't compare one to the other. No two people are exactly the same, just like no two jobs are exactly the same even if the position might be. There are so many other factors involved that aren't considered when questions like these are asked.

4. Is that negotiable?
I know that since I am the person coming in for interview, I should be grateful. But sometimes, I can't help but feel like I wasted my time. Most especially if you ask me if my asking salary is negotiable. I mean, I'm currently working to gain experience. I'm gaining experience to increase my self worth. Now, after stating my current salary and my asking salary, you ask me if its negotiable??? That's like asking me out to dinner, but then telling me I'm paying for the next 5 dates.

In the current job I am now, I was definitely taken aback with questions like, "How well do you write?", "What exactly did you do as a...?", and "Do you think your resume looks impressive? What do you hope to accomplish working for me?" These are questions that I would rather answer. It makes me believe that the position I'm applying for needs actual thinking as compared to coming up with bullshit answers to get the job. No offense to others.

I like pretty things.

I seriously don't know where to start. I haven't written in so long (at least not in my blog anyway). Maybe it was because I got busy with work. Maybe it was because I didn't have anything to write about. Or maybe, it was because I was lazy. Yes, lazy. Let's go with that.

I started working (like, real work) in a PR agency this January. I contact the media for press events, make PR reports, write and seed press releases, monitor pick-ups, and occasionally present to clients. Little did I know that I would also be making infographics, logos, posters, invites, and the like. So, hello Photoshop. We meet again, after countless times I've broken up with you.

As for my first post after months of hibernation from the blogosphere, I decided that it should be dedicated to my creative work that no one will see. (Unless of course you were invited to the event or part of the presentation, then hello, I am the creator.)

Coke Makisalo Makisali Proposed PR Plan

SoFA Pitch, Brochure 1

SoFA Pitch, Brochure 2

 FedEx Pitch, Comparative Pricing

FedEx Pitch, Competitors + CSR

 FedEx Pitch, The Logistics Process

adidas King of the Road 2013 Save the Date

Wyeth ProMama Mama Yes You Can Logo

Wyeth ProMama, Press Event Invites + Stickers

Wyeth ProMama, Proposed Inforgraphic


Wyeth ProMama Myth Question 1


Wyeth ProMama Myth Question 2


Wyeth ProMama Myth Question 3


Wyeth ProMama Myth Question 4


Wyeth ProMama Myth Question 5

I'm pretty sure I was hired to be a publicist, but sometimes, I really wonder. Oh well. 

Fight. Flight. Future.

I think I finally understood why we weren't meant to know what happens in the future. About a month ago, I visited a psychic with a few of my friends. Now, it's not that I highly believe in those things, but I just wanted to experience it. I know a few people who've had their readings done and said it was very accurate. I just wanted to see for myself.

So, I went over to Tara's (that's the name of the psychic), chose a deck of cards and started asking my questions. She covered everything from career to family to even my love life. She said her predictions, but also mentioned some events that have happened to me in the past. It was pretty scary when she got things correctly, but I tried very hard not to make any sudden movements or facial expressions. I didn't want her cold reading my expressions to her advantage.

After having your future read to you, you can only react two ways: Fight or Flight. Either you anticipate the situation and subconsciously make decisions that eventually lead to that thing happening, or you try to avoid the situation altogether, making sure that it doesn't happen.

And here's where it gets tricky.. None of her predictions for me have come true (yet). And I'm not sure whether or not it's because she's not really a psychic or because I've chosen flight every single time. I feel like there could have been instances when she was right, but just to prove otherwise, I did the exact opposite. Maybe it was my Catholic ways, or maybe I'm just scared everything she said would come true if I let at least one of her predictions happen, but I just felt like I had to change things.

So the true question remains, did she correctly read my future? The fact that none of them have come true could be because of my own doing. I have probably altered my own future by knowing it. I guess I'll never really know, but one thing's for sure, I'd rather take the future one day at a time.


Edit: One has come true because I made the first move towards it. 

Just one of those days.

Ever had one of those days when a certain someone just kept crossing your mind? And it's not that you particularly miss them or still long for them, but I think it's more of because you miss the idea of having them around. I'm having one of those days.

Hoodie/Bed/Emo Weather

It has been raining for the past idon'tknowhowmany days. Don't get me wrong, I love the rain. The pitter patter sound of the water, the chilly winds that accompany it, and even the once-in-awhile lightning strikes that feels like God is taking a photograph. What I don't like is the feeling it brings. The rush back of emotions of better or worse times.

It's been a week since I got back from Italy. The trip was the perfect escape to my routinely life. It gave me a chance to get lost and step out of my comfort zone. It did not though let me forget what I left back home. The moment I got back, I felt like I was back to waiting. Waiting and waiting.. For nothing. Again.

I seriously don't want to go back to that. But I feel like, if the opportunity 'FINALLY' presents itself (again), I will fall for it (again). I am such a sucker for love.